Dead End

Ambiguity wrestles within me. How do i really feel about him? How do i really feel about us? this?

So Pressed on the issue of feelings, I've become a robot.. only showing emotion when it should be displayed... for fear of him going away

and now it struck me as odd. as strange. the words that he say. that he could be making a mistake. that i can be the one that got away. and i will. One day.

Eff it though you cant have everything.

No love song. Not a quote. But from the heart deep down i feel like... like...

I just realized this wont work. just wont work out.

My souls been trapped. closed in. emotional shut down.

My guard is still up but its fighting free.

and the man that i want, he cant even be.