Sad Soul

Dark clouds tend to invade my world
It gets harder & harder to fight the demons inside.

Not everything is perfectly pictured like some may think
or may convince themselves to believe
because in my own sorrows is where i truly sink
Sinking deep in fear of never amounting to good so part of my struggles
are within myself...how do you overcome that?
Its a constant battle i am never satisfied with this thing called
life
I yearn for love but it stifles me to reciprocate the same feelings
I fear being lonely but i want to be left alone
I would love to experience total bliss & live that thing called
happiness but my story seems to remain the same...sadness
Everyone experiences ups & downs but it seems as if my life is
about more downs than ups
its easier to count my blessings im sure but i love to take the harder
route

It takes a strong person to fight battles, especially emotional ones, most importantly mental ones

but day by day i seem to deem myself weak and not capable of being a fighter

and day by day i continue to lose.